die trying.

Everyone around me is the best. When I say “the best”, I mean they’re good at everything. I have to sit and watch everyone do what they’re good at, while I can’t do one thing. I’m untalented. I’m not smart. I can’t do anything. I’ve been feeling this way for a very very long time, but no one notices nor cares. They just keep on bragging about their fabulous life. When does it end? I finally got out of this hopeless stage a few months ago, but it just keeps coming back. I just want to cry all day because it feels good to let it all out. To have all the tears in your ducts vaporize. To have all the mucus in your nose just be released. I know it sounds weird, but that’s how it feels when you’re hopeless. I don’t have that one person I can just let my heart out to. I can’t even talk to my best friend for god sake. I have all these bottled up feelings and I can’t let them out. They have been building inside me for at least 3 years, one day I’m just going to let it all out. I don’t know when or how, but I will.